adik...adik...

dik, saye fham mcm mane awk ni. tp bole x once in my life, tlogla~~ jgn laa~ evrythng dat i done seems to be horrible to u. why?? bdak2 laen, care dyorg eply comment x lah sekejam care awk. sory, if im using dat word. but only dat word can describe what i feel. yes! if i had make mistake to u or being unpolite infront of u, pliz tell me..i told u isnt it? not evrythng dat we say is same like what others think. ko slalu nsht aq itu ini. jgn ckp camtu camni.nty org terase la ape laa tp aq tngok ko buat jgak. ape ni dik? bile aq nsht ko bnd yg ko nsht aq dlue, ko senggol tgn aq, ko ckp eleh kat aq, alahai nurin.. macam2.aq pikir ko yg slalu nsht aq tp ko same jek. ape ni? lau ko sndri pon camtu, tlogla terime nsht org. mybe aq kasar ngan ko, tp ckap laa.. jgn smpi aq bosan ngan ko.aq xnak coz ko la kwn yg paleng dekat ngan aq.mcm ni la, ko tegor aq, aq terime. aq tegor ko, ko kene terime la jugak.. jgn jdik cam ketam ajar ank dye jalan. ketam laen, kite laen dik..tlog ea? pas ko bace bnde ni, tlogla..bgtau ape slah aq.clearly.. skang ni, ape yg aq rase, stiap kali ko dtg kat wall aq, aq da jangke bnde yg bukan2. bnde burok. aq xnak camni..tlog ye dik, ckap lau ade pape.

argh! malu nyer!!

oh shit! SHT betol la! ieyh bengangnye aq mase tuh! aq x tau hantu ape yg dah msok dlam bdn aq mase tuh! bnde ni jdik da lame daa. Oh My ALLAH! am i falling in love or what?!! mase tu, aq nk blikan mknn tok akq aq. so, aq snggh la kat tmpt dye keje. then, mase kat tmpt amek order, aq bole ckap nak bungkos! ya ALLAH! malunye! its 'take-away' laa sengal!! bengangye aq! mybe pd org laen bnd ni juz a small matter je. tp pd aq! argh! malu! aq scre x lngsng jdik ter...ter...terDIAM! terKELU! slame ni, x pnah pon jdik camni.

am i in love?

tlogla! u r stil young girl! nk cintan cinton la hape la! pkirkan mende laen bole?

tp nk buat cmne? nothing i can do when he is near me!

argh! stop diz! ko nak amek pmr taon dpan, tau x? baek pkir psal mende tuh! ko tu da laa x brape bijak, malas plak tuh!

argh! somebody please help me stop all diz!

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aq ske lgu niyh..,

lgu niyh lgu yg play kat blog adek kembar aq iaitu yaya..,

ouwh Anuar Zain!!

ouwh!! aq sgt meminati dye niyh..,

dye ensem tp smpi skang x kawen2.., iesyh!! nape la siti xnak kat dye..,

hmmm.,, ensem, ade style,.. haiyh!! bile la ko na kawen ye???

aq t'tngu2 sape la yg akn jdik bini dye nty..,

aq mnat ngan dye tp xde ar smpi na tmpl p0ster kat wall bilek ke ape ke..,

juz mnat cenggitu jek..,

aq slalu ng0k ulangan citer bintang hati.., filem 2 dye b'lakon ngan amy mastura..,

tp satu je bnde aq x ske ngan dye skang niyh,..

rmb0t dye pnjg!! aq xske llaki rmbut pjg or botak..,

aq ske rnbut yg biase2 jek..,

hmm.., bile la ko nak pt0ng rnbut pastu kawen...,

ill always wait 4 dat m0ment yau..,

impian aku

sbnrnye aq ni b'cita2 na jdik se0rg penulis tp aq rase agy bek lau aq lupekan aje niat aq uh c0z modal dye bkannye due tige ribu tp b'pul0h ribu..,so, skang ni aq ade citer na k0ngsi ngan k0rg.., citer dye cenggini; ade s0rg llaki ni, member laki ni ade kdai burger.., member dye meniaga kat dpan kdai dvd..,dye slalu lepak ngan member dye tp dari pagi hingge ke petang aje..,bile malam, waktu member dye na tt0p kdai, bru dye dtg situ smule t0k tl0g kwan dye., kat kdai dvd uh, ade s0rg awek yg keje kat situ..,awek 2 jage kdai 2 waktu mlam jek.., s0, of c0urse ar dye x pnah prasan khdran awek uh..,tetibe satu ary tu, awek 2 kene jage kdai 2 waktu siang.., s0, dye dpt ar ng0k awek uh.., bile dye ng0k awek uh, dye rase cam na try jek..,tiap2 ary, dye akn lepak dari pagi hingge ke ptg kat kdai member dye pastu dari ptg smpi ke mlam dye lepak kat kdai dvd awek uh..,tiap2 ary dye akn beli dvd kat kdai uh semate2 sbb na jumpe ngan awek uh..,sume jenis dvd dye beli., dari filem melayu smpi ke filem tamil.., lpas sebulan, laki tu x dtg kdai dvd tu..,awek tu tnggu lime hari, x dtg ..,tnggu seminggu, x dtg gak..,pas due minggu, awek tu g tnye kat member llaki uh..,member laki tu bg ar address laki uh kat awek ni..,bile awek tu g umah laki tu, mak dye kate yg laki tu da mninggal sbb kanser..,mak laki tu suw0h awek ni g bilik laki tu..,bile awek tu ms0k bilik laki tu, dye nmpk byk dvd yg x terbukak..,then, awek tu nanges.....,nape??? sbb kat dlam dvd tu awek tu ltak srat t0k laki uh..,s0, agk2 na kesian kat sape???

sche

im s0rry...,

i feel terribly guilty...,

berd0senye aq.., she has d0ne so many thing 4 me but its me who g0t a blind eyes n heart easily blamed her..., its her dat all diz while really cares b0ut her frenz feeling..,

she is s0 nice.., i cant seen it all diz while c0z she loves 2 make her fake smile dat makes evryb0dy thinks dat it is nothing..,

i d0nt wanna break or hurt her feelings anym0re..., i'll try my best by make her happy..,

not a "fake happiness" anym0re..., i'll make sure of it..,

n0b0dy g0nna hurt her..., n0b0dy g0nna make her feel terrible....including me...,

i'll make sure of it...,

i luv u ct fatma nadya!!

now i know.., dat there's stil a fren dat really cares b0ut me..,

dat kn0ws what i want.., dat rteally appreciate diz frenship even i hurt her many times..,

it's not dat my 0ther frens d0esnt cares bout me but i see d one dat really cares b0ut me is she..,

yes, i admit it dat d other cares bout me but as i say, d one dat i see dat really cares bout me is she..,

n she is SITI FATIMAH NADIA BINTI RAHIMAN...,

after i read her blog juz now, i know dat she really cares b0ut my feeling...,

how im g0nna feel when she do diz, she done dat.... everything!!

but its me dat sometimes see dat she is d one dat always hurt me!

im s0rry, yaya.., i admit it dat all diz while, i think all d bad comes from u...,

c0z in our frenship fr0m what i saw all diz while dat u always hurt, d0esnt care b0ut me..,

n sometimes, i'll ask myself.., do u hate me? dont u wanna be fren anym0re??

tp persepsi n tnggapan 2 sume da b'akhir.., sbb aq tau sape kwan aq yg sbnrnye skang niyh...,

thanx fatimah!!! t0k sgale yg ko uat t0k aq selame niyh!!!

aq akn cube t0k fham ko lpas ni.., (aq x jnji tp aq akn cube, ye??)

fieza....,

i wanna make a change in my frenship but i think nobody cares b0ut it...,

why fieza is being like dat???

sometimes she will be fine n i like her way..,

but sometimes she will change n make me feel she is 'something'!

or only me dat feel dat way...,

yaya is okay wif me n0w.., she knows how 2 talk 2 me n how 2 behave wif me...,

but now, fieza is..... i d0nt know how 2 explain..,

if she mad at me c0z im always make a face when she says smethng b0ut kamil, im n0t being like dat anym0re...,

when she says smethng n cant pickup, she will explain 2 me wif d way like im s0 stupid..,

i kn0w dat she is clever then me but at least, respect me as her fren..,

i kn0w dat maybe smetimes i didnt respect her as my fren but dat bc0z she d0 d same thing 2 me...!!

i'll do d same thing 2 0thers if they d0 smethng 2 me..,

im always thnking b0ut diz..., is she mad at me???

is she hates me??

is she d0esnt like me but why??

i juz d0nt kn0w h0w 2 ask her...,

c0z she is juz like me n fatima.., (cepat melenting)

maybe diz is d way i can asks her...,

fieza, answer me when u read diz entry...,

i really need 2 kn0w why u behave like diz wif me while when u wif fatima, u never sh0w diz kind of attitude..,

answer me...,

SIR!

Last 30th June, Encik Yusree mad atme =(.
i'm so sad. He shouted at me..., The story begins like ddiz....

The day before the two weeks holidays, i though my book was missing. So, I told him. He says, 'ha,ha... buku hilang. Ha,ha... Kene but baliklah...' he sounds like kidding wif me. So, I do a new book.
After three weeks, he gave us work to be done. I do it in the new book. When he wanna return our book, he returned my old book. WHAT?! My old book is wif him?? Oh Tidak! I'm so... sedih! I done the new book wif a love and tup, tup! He got my old book... Argh..., Maybe it's my mistake too!

So, back to the story, when he asked me.

'Nurin, where is ur exercise?' and he continued 'have u pass it?' and i replied 'Yes! I pass it wif d others...' He didn't see my work! B'coz he looked my old book! Not the new one!

So, when I explained to him, I continued by says,

'You r d one who says dat my book was lost!' and he wif a hard voice and big eyes looked at ne and says,

'No!!! I didn't says the book was LOST! u r d one who says d book was LOST!

I'm so sraced at dat time. I juz feel like wanna runand cried alone! He scolds me! He shouted at me! No one ever shouted at me like dat before (at school)!

Dat was my first time. EVER! I'm so sad... and scared! i juz feel like wanna cried but I don't wanna show dat girl is weak so I can't cry! Ijuz cry in my heart.. I don't have any idea why he become like dat in a sudden!

Yeah... I'm asensitive girl but HAPPENING or malay says, 'sporting'! I can't be scolded! I will cry if someone scolded me =( Whenever my parents or my sisters mad at me, I will cry alone and nobody knows.

Maybe Encik Yusree mad at me coz I says he who says dat my book was lost. And Ihe found it. It's juz like 'LOST & FOUND'! Arghhh!! I still can't forget d way he scolded me.. As malay says, 'Tidur tak basah, mandi tak kenyang, makan tak lena'. =)

Whenever I look at his book, I will be remembered of dat thing. I scared dat he might still mad at me.

Last !st July I meet Encik yusree and Say sorry 2 him 4 shouted at him yesterday. An d he says 'never mind, it's alright'.
Alright?! No!! It's not right! I am wrong!


( mseh dlm keadaan tkot ag..
x tau bile rase ni bleh hilang... =( )